I love my family

I am really glad to have a very good family with me cos without them i am NOTHING! =D They can turn my world from black to white and because of them, i don't feel lonely at all.  I only know the definition of LOVE when i am with them =) For me, no FAMILY. no LOVE! My father is a business man, he is busy all the time but he is willing to spare some time to accompany me to do something that i want and i really appreciate that.  When i was small, he used to play badminton with me and that's how i fall in love with BADMINTON! However, he is kinda old now and he can't play badminton with me anymore, i do feel sad for that cos i miss the time where we play badminton. >.< He used to hold my hand when i was small cos he afraid that i might fall down and get hurt but now he don't hold my hands anymore because i have grown up and i know how to get up when i fall down. =) My mother is a housewife, she knows nothing about the world but she is willing to help me in my homework with her limited knowledge. She always tries to give me everything that i want cos she wants me to be happy.  So, my life is full of happiness because my mum is with me. <3 My siblings are annoying sometimes but they are the best!<3 My life would be so boring without them!  I know they care about me so much =D It is really good to have someone to care about you cos you can feel the LOVE! =) 

                                                  Anyway, i love my family! <3

I want a LONG SUMMER BREAK!

Sigh, my summer break is so short, around 2.5 months, oh, how can it be? =((((( I need at least 6 months of summer break or maybe MORE cos i just want to stay in Malaysia with my family and my friends! I wanna forget ADELAIDE badly! >.< I told my mum that i have no friends in Adelaide and i feel lonely at there but my mum replied me that "you have to become more independent". Well, i know i am not independent enough but who CARES? Being independent can be tired sometimes =P Maybe i should tell my mum that i can become more independent if only i STAY in Malaysia! XD Adelaide is really boring, i don't actually have much fun at there and i feel stressful! =( Maybe i should go to brisbane, melbourne or sydney cos i can have a lot of fun at there and maybe i can meet a better person at there as well =))) Anyway, i wish i can extend my summer break!

So, i actually hate my housemate NOW!

I hate to say that but i have to say that "I am really angry of my housemate" because she is the one who brings nightmare to me!  I want to say "Thank you" to her because she always organize party at my apartment and those noises make me able to sleep for 4-5 hour only which is really "GOOD" for my body health.  Wow, i cannot believe that i can survive with 4-5 hour of sleep only, so, i am STRONG, huh! I am so lucky to have her as my housemate because i am able to listen to the "lovely noise" created from her every Friday night, this is really COOL! So, i am thinking to organize a party to repay her so that she also can enjoys listening to the "lovely noise" produced by me and my party friends.  I think she will appreciate me for that. =) She is a genius cos she always choose to organize a party one day before my exam, wow, this make me LOVE her more....cos i just cannot fall asleep and the "lovely noises" produced by her again make me feel awake and i can study more.  So, she is helping me to upgrade my academic grade, i should feel happy cos she HELPS me a LOT! 

Anyway, i am tired today! Thanks to my lovely housemate =)

My heart is empty

Mmm.....my heart is empty, it is true cos i don't feel like i have feelings for anyone.  What i mean is i am a "cold-blooded" person, how pathetic.....i wish i can learn how to care about someone with my love but i just can't do it cos i have no FEELING at all! Well, i'm always looking for someone to fill my heart with their love cos i just need some love to make me a better person but not a harsh person. However, when someone is trying to fill my heart with her/his love, i feel weird, i feel so uncomfortable and therefore i have rejected them in a very harsh way.  What's wrong with me? I find myself so insecure and i am not willing to let people who cares about me to join my life! I know i am so selfish that i am not willing to share my life with others and i really feel bad for that.=(  Well, having an empty heart with me is no fun at all, i mean i can feel my heartbeat but i can't feel anything else more than that...so, my heart is basically NOTHING.  If i have "nothing" in my heart, that would be no fun in my life, the whole life.  I think i need something to cure my heart cos my heart is sick. Maybe, i should start to put more trust on my friends, i should trust them that they will fill my heart with their 100 percent pure love! That's the only way....i think....maybe....perhaps.....

                                              I'm kinda addicted to this lovely music

I miss my home already =((

Arghh, when can i go back to Malaysia? =((( I just can't stand it anymore cos i miss my family so much and i really need someone to teach me on how to make time go by faster! >.< I think i have enough fun at here and now i just want to get back to my parents side and stay with them cos i really MISS them, it sounds weird for me to say that but it is so TRUE! =) Well, i may look tough, independent but deep inside my heart, i am just a little kid who need someone to take care of me, especially my family.  I know this is ridiculous cos i am 20 years old and i still depend on everyone, i know i should not rely on someone too much but i just can't.....well, that's me!  I just want to go back to Malaysia, my home and i wanna lie in my king size bed cos i miss my bed too! =(

                                     *Anyway, that's me when i was small, look cute, huh? =P

I am busy

I have been so busy lately =( I really hate myself for being so busy in doing assignment, homework, presentation and research.  Sigh, my life is lack of fun, i don't wish to study all the time cos this is so crazy, well, gaining knowledge is fun but gaining knowledge in a "forced situation" is a headache to me.  I am so busy until i can't take a break to chat with my family and my parents keep complaining about this issues, like" How come you are so busy that you can't spare some time to chat with us?" I know they wanted to talk to me so badly as i did not  talk to them for a long time, i know i should not let them down but i am REALLY BUSY! I wish i can finish this semester earlier so that i can go back to Malaysia and accompany them cos they need my attention. =) I hate my life for being so busy, i need to RELAX now! 

I am not HAPPY =(

I am not happy because i do not know how to differentiate between what is right and wrong.
I am not happy because my life is complicated.
I am not happy because my true friends aren't my true friends.
I am not happy because someone have wronged me.
I am not happy because i started to revenge on my friends who have wronged me which i think that i should not do that.
I am not happy because i find out the ugly truth about my friends.
I am not happy because my friend is a hypocrite.
I am not happy because i cannot find anyone to trust.
I am not happy because i cannot move on with my life.

I am not happy because i HATE myself.  I am just not happy with my life =(
The truth is " I get tired of finding the truth".

I want to be a koala bear =P

Why do i want to become a KOALA BEAR? =P This is because koala bear can sleep all the time (almost 20 hour per day) and the most important thing is they do not need to wake up early and GO TO LECTURE! =)))  Anyway, i sleep all the time during my holidays (winter break) and i think i'm kinda addicted to sleep since it is a lovely activity.  Everybody loves it =D  However, i still feel tired even though i have slept enough which is not a good sign.  Duh~my friends always tell me that they feel so SICK after knowing that i have spent so much time for sleeping, haha, well, you guys just can't help with it. XD  So, my friends always called me "BEAR" because bear hibernate in the WINTER.  Well, actually i feel sick too cos my school starts next week and i'm kinda afraid that i can't wake up early for the morning lecture class T.T No!!!!!!!  Maybe i should buy more alarm clocks so that i won't late for my lecture otherwise i will skip all my morning lecture for my next semester, is anyone willing to give me a morning call? XD That's why i say being a koala bear isn't bad at all cos what they need to do for their daily life is EAT AND SLEEP! So lucky >.< Lol, some of my friends even laugh at me for sleeping too much because they feel that i look nerdy after sleeping, so SAD!  Stow it!!

Boring Holidays =(

Duh, my holiday is so boring and i feel really regret for not going back to MALAYSIA =((( Argh, now i can understand the feeling that you stuck into a boring place where there is no ENTERTAINMENT at all. =.= And i'm a person who get bored easily which means my life is lack of FUN! >.<  I wanna go back to Malaysia and have fun with my family and friends and i really want to eat DURIAN! Oh, how come my family eat durian without me??  I know i should have fun in Adelaide but i really can't find a place to enjoy. In malaysia, i can always go out and "yum cha" with my friends, but in adelaide, it is really hard to find a good place to yum cha at NIGHT!  In malaysia, i can drive my own car and go everywhere that i like, but in adelaide, i have no Car to go everywhere that i like except taking bus or tram.  Well, whenever i mention this to my parent, they will just say" You this naughty girl, stop complains about lack of fun in your LIFE cos you ALREADY have enough fun in your life.  And please appreciate everything that we have done for you and we always give the best to YOU!" And...bla..bla...bla........ =.=  Sigh, i always have to spend at least 1 hour to listen their BORING "stories", just like my holiday, BORED!  Actually, my parents like to complain about me too.  They always say that i did not miss them cos i don't even give a call or skype with them during my free time.  Lol, this is really FUNNY, so, parents can complain too! =D Anyway, holidays are boring sometimes, but university is boring all the time! XD 

PUB?!!!

One of my favourite activities is going to PUB =)) Well, i am not trying to become a bad girl or what, i just like the atmosphere at there, it is really AWESOME! =D I go to the PUB every friday night and i really enjoy it cos that's the only time i can get to relax, hooray! I don't usually dance at there (I am not good in dancing), so, i will just order a wine or cocktail and start to DRINK with my friends.  I always try my very best to get my friend drunk but i am always the first person to get drunk at there.  Duh, it is so unfair =(( Why do i get drunk so easily?  Lol, my friends always laugh at me when i get drunk....T.T  Anyway, pub is really FUN if only you know how to enjoy the environment and also the wine at there! =)  Aha, i also like the music at there, it just make me feel happy.......i can just sit at there and enjoy the music for WHOLE NIGHT! That's why i did not get enough sleep all the time =(((( Well, i think it should be "OK" with me cos i'm willing to sacrifice my sleep just to have fun in PUB! Wahaha >.<

Boyfriend or boy friend? =)

Well, my current boyfriend always ask me a question which is "Am i your boyfriend or boy friend? Haha, that's a good question, cos i don't even know how to answer him.  To be honest, i always TRIED to treat him as my boyfriend but i always did something bad to him (Hurt or Insult).  Maybe i am not TALENTED in love, i just don't know how to love somebody! That's so SAD for me =(   I am a person who doesn't want to spare my love to my boyfriend but, i just want THEM TO LOVE ME! It is really selfish to ask someone to you but you are the one who does not want to share your love with that person. And i am that person. =) I always ask myself why do i need a boyfriend in my life? Cos i don't love them at all, why do i still need to waste my time and also his time? >.< I always hope that i can meet a right person, it's just like an enzyme substrate mechanism, i want the best substrate to FIT ME! Hope that i will find one BEST SUBSTRATE in my future life~ =)))

I am just a crying baby

One of my favorite hobby is -Crying T.T Well, i always think that crying is a form of exercise that can help you to relive stress or help you to get over hard feeling when you are facing a terrible problem.  I always cry too easily and in situations that i really shouldn't, but, i just cannot do anything with it.  I just let my tears run down from my face and i only cry when i feel stressed and tired of my life.  I bet there must be a lot of people can get rid of this feeling but not me, i do not have the ability to get through the feeling without someone important by my side.  Therefore, crying is the only way that can help me to get through everything cos i really feel better when i finished crying.  At least, i will feel tired and lye in bed and sleep like a baby without thinking too much! =)) Maybe i should tell myself that " A good girl like me should not cry".  It's time for me to not become a crying baby.  Nobody will rely on me if i cried all the time!

No more BAD habits

When i was young, i used to hate people to smoke or drink alcoholic drinks cos i don't think it is good for body health.  So, i will just try to restrict myself for not doing those kind of things even though my friends always coax me to do that.  They think that smoking and drinking alcoholic drinks is not a really big deal and they think that it is COOL for having those kind of habits.  Cool, huh? Is smoking really makes you cool? Well, i don't know and therefore i asked for a cigarette from my friends and begin to smoke.  Since i am a beginner, i cannot smoke really well as my friends did but i realized that smoking does not make you look COOL at all! =(((( It just make your body feel tired and dizzy, i really feel bad for having a first cigarette in my life, NO WAY! If my parents know that, they will just ask me to come back to MALAYSIA and don't allow me to go out anymore! So, i must become a good girl and smoking, alcoholic drinks or gambling should not become a part of my life~ XD My life should be full of happiness (Study, exercising, shopping or sleeping) but not those kind of bad habits.  It's time to stop those bad habits especially smoking cos i'm afraid that i will get addicted to cigarette. Ah, please don't cos i am always a good girl.  I hate smoking, alcoholic drinks and gambling and i don't really want to attach to them! Sook theng, be firm, no more bad habits in your life~ =))))))

Phew =) I feel relieved now!

Well, why do i feel relieved? Aha, this is because i learn how to let go of something that is insignificant in my life especially someone or somethings that does not mean a lot to me.  I am a very serious person and i used to think a lot when people comments on everything that i did.  I feel bad when they did not trust me and this actually suffers me a lot cos i will just keep thinking on the same question "Why they don't trust me?" =( So, i make myself suffer a lot cos i just could not stop THINKING! No, i do not want to attached to "MENTAL HEALTH". However, i feel relax and comfortable now cos i understand that they are many things that i could not control such as 'PEOPLE MINDSET". Yup, one of my friends always tell me that not to think and control too much cos that will just trouble my life!  I really appreciate her advices cos those advices really help me a lot in my life. Thanks a lot =)  I think i will stop thinking too much because of YOU!  Anyway, i feel completely relieved now cos i just could not stop smiling and feel like want to have a good nap.  There are a lot of things that really worth me to appreciate.  I think i should stop showing my "emo face" to everyone, instead, i should smile everyday so that people can feel my happiness. XD Eeeeeeee~SMILE =)))

Just stop that!

Yup, i wanna stop myself for doing those "stupid" or "rubbish" things to someone that i don't think he/she will knows it and appreciates it.  Well, i admit that i am a silly person cos i always think about him/her when i am having lecture class (Cannot concentrate at all) and i always talk about her/him a lots to my firends.  They said i actually started a relationship but i always persuade myself that i did not start any relationship! This is because i do have a boyfriend with me and why do i have to start a relationship without breaking up or thinking of my boyfriend.  If he knows that there is a third party involved in our relationship, he probably will fly to Australia and slap me. =.= Maybe i should not reply her/his message anymore cos i cannot stop sms him/her when i am FREE and NOT FREE! Dammit, i never do this to anyone and now he/she has successfully to make me to sms them!  Congratulations to Sook theng, you actually cannot stop thinking about her/him every seconds.  I know this is not good! =( I know that i am a bad person cos i always make her/him cried.  This is because i always hide myself from them and also ignoring them.  I wanna say Sorry and i know someday you will understand my situation and also the reason for not choosing you as my partner! =) *We are FRIENDS*

I am a bad girl

Lol, i just can't believe that i am actually become a bad girl in my mother eyes.  I think for several seconds on why she thinks that i am a bad girl and the conclusion is : I alway hurt people in a harsh way and never care people with my LOVE.  Well, this is really funny, how am i going to care people with my love? I just don't know how to do that.  I always think that scolding or hurting people is a kind of caring and that's why my friends always said that i am a heartbreaker.  So, it really make sense now cos i just like to hurt people no matter what. This is not good, please do not learn from me otherwise you will become another bad girl/boy or a heartbreaker like me! >.<  I think i should start to care people with my 100 percent true love since caring people with love is much more better than caring people with harsh words.  Duh~ Sometimes, i know that i hurt people in a very harsh way, but i did not mean to hurt you guys cos that's my style.  Now i found out why am i always fail in every relationship with my boyfriend, that is because i HURT them.  Well, they can actually tell me when they feel really hurtful but they did not tell me.  They just bear with my harsh words instead of telling me their feelings.  Lol, now i understand that my boyfriend actually love me a lot. =) Ok, i am wrong cos i did wrong stuffs which is treating people in a very bad way.  I will not repeat this mistake again, so, i will try to care people with my love from NOW ON! Whee~ =)

Just Let It Go

Duh~ i am really a stubborn person and it is difficult for me to let go of something that is insignificant in my life =( Can anyone teach me not to care every little things in my life?  This is because i realized that caring can be hurt sometimes.  I want to care for someone but someone that i really care will usually hurt me a lot.  This is really terrible as i really don't wish to be hurt by someone that i CARE!  My friends ask me to give up on the  person as he/she does not mean a lot in my life and they think that holding on to this relationship will just make us feel the pain.  They even tell me not to care for this person anymore because he/she does not treat me as a best friend but a person to accompany him/her when he/she feels alone.  So, i am demanded when someone feels alone.  Well, i just want to tell him/her that i won't care about you anymore cos you are taking advantages on me.  As your friends, i feel hurt about that but i just did not tell you about my feeling cos i still think that our friendship can last forever.  However, life tells me that i have to let you go from my life cos you are giving me too much pain that i do not deserve AT ALL!  Hey, someone, i think i will try my best to forget you in my life cos you are NOT my friends anymore. Well, just let it go and accept the fate that we can't be friends anymore.  Caring of you is not my JOB. =)

Like or Love?

Sometimes, my friends cannot differentiate the words between "like" and "love" and this actually make them suffer a lot from a relationship.  If you like someone but not loving someone, please don't start the relationship!  You like someone cos you are treating him/her as your BEST FRIEND, a friend who can accompany you whenever you feel down and sad.  This is not related to LOVE at all.  If you love someone, you will not treating him/her as your best friend but a special person that you want him/her to be your side forever. =)  Well, one of my friends suffer a LOT from a relationship, she has gone through a lot of "pain" that she does not deserve and this is really TERRIBLE.  Seeing my best friend feel sad or depressed for an "unworthy" relationship make me feel sympathy for her, i can do nothing but talk to her so that she can feels much better.  I feel sad whenever she cries in front of me and i don't want see any of my friends cry in front of me, the feeling is terrible and indescribable.  I have tried to persuade her to give up the relationship, but i know it's hard for her.  Sometimes, letting go of someone that you really love and care is difficult but we just have to try no matter what!  Giving up a relationship can be good sometimes cos it gives you a new chance to get a better one =) Maybe she cannot understands the meaning between like and love, but i know she will understand someday!  Time can helps to realize a lot of things =) 

Friendship Forever =)

Well, i just realized that i actually love my friends a lot <3 ! =D And the most beautiful thing is my friends actually love me too! Awww, this is so sweet and lovely =) I think friendship is the most "beautiful" relationship that i ever had in my life.  I am willing to lend my shoulders for my friends to lean on whenever they need me~Hey, that's my biggest promise to all my friends. =) Do not hesitate when you need someone (like me XD ) to make your life easier and happy cos i will just do anything (like giving you surprises everyday) to make you feel excited and HAPPY! My friends, if you feel alone, i will give you a call even though i am busy with my assignment and studies.  My friends, if you feel sad, i will give you a big warm hug so that happiness can goes back to you! My friends, if you feel stressful, do not worry cos i will hold your hand tightly so that you can feel my LOVE and LOVE can actually calm someone down. =) My friends, if you feeling depressed for your relationship with your love one, don't feel terrible, i will give you a soft kiss on your cheek so that you can always know that there is always someone to support you and take care of you no matter what happens.<3 I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND.

                                           A song dedicated to all my friends. LOVE YOU GUYS!

Something is not right

Something is not right with me =((( I started to get depressed easily and i found myself emotional weakly.  I don't wish to be like that but i have no choice.  When the things around me do not go smoothly as i expected, i will feel sad and even hate myself for not trying my best to make things get better.  Perhaps i am SICK =( i am sick for everything including my relationship with my friends, my love and my family.  My friends always tell me not to care too much or not to think too much, but, i just cannot stop myself to THINK! =[ I feel so suffer and i wanna forget everything badly.  Sometimes i think amnesia is good cos i will just forget every little thing in my life and start my new life again =) I know that it is not possible for me to get amnesia if only a person willing to hit my brain or my head hardly.  Yup, i am not satisfy with my life, i feel sad and lonely even though my friends are with me.  Isn't it weird?  I can tell you guys that i always "try" my best to make myself happy.  From this sentence here, i found myself out of my mind cos nobody will try to make themselves to be happy.  Happiness is really far away from me...maybe i do not deserve to be happy.  I should feel happy when i come back from brisbane, but things changed when i get scolded by someone that i dislike on the day i came back.  I feel so weird when i get scolded by someone for no reason, i really hate that cos i did not do anything wrong to him!  He should feels guilty for scolding me cos it's his fault. I'm done with him cos i feel tired.  That's why i choose not to care about him anymore, i will just let him to scold or insult me whenever he wants to do that.  I will just ignore him cos my life is independent on him but those words from him is really hurts me.  Those words really make me feel DOWN! I hope i can get rid of this feeling as soon as possible, I NEED HELP! =(

This song can really describe my feeling! =( Emo sook theng is back!

Test test test =((((

Well, i'm going to have DFD (dosage form design) test soon =(( I feel so afraid of the test cos i did not prepare very well.  Moreover, i cannot understand the lecture notes AT ALL! I cannot imagine how am i going to have the test with this kind of situation...Duh, i just want a PASS! And i really hate to hear "expect or expectation" from our beloved lecturer cos they CANNOT EXPECT ANYTHING from us, instead, they should assume we don't know anything! =.= I seriously can feel the stress when i cannot do the tutorial question with the provided answers. This feeling is not good =( How come i cannot understand a question with the provided answer? And how come i cannot answer a question even though i have read through all the necessary notes? Duh~this is just so wrong! Maybe our beloved lecturer should change his way of teaching otherwise we are gonna to suffer for this whole semester! >.< Argh, DFD, i won't let you to fail me! =D

Soft serve cone =)

Aha, i started to like Soft Serve Cone cos it is just so Amazing and Awesome! =)) I like to eat it whenever i feel sad and down because it can brings back my smile in just a second XD See, i am smiling!!!! I just can't stop myself to eat it even though my friends tell me that it is not healthy at all~ Well, WHO CARES! I just want to enjoy my delicious soft serve cone cos it makes my day =))) I don't wish to act like a kid but i have to admit that i have fallen in love with SOFT SERVE CONE <3!! Duh~ i feel like i want to have SOFT SERVE CONE now =))) Who wants to eat with me? Vanila or chocolate is OK for me! XD

University Life

Duh~my university life is just so boring and annoying =((( Everyday, i have to wake up at 8 or 9a.m just for one lecture class and this is really sucks as i need MORE SLEEPS in the morning.  I almost missed all my breakfast just because of the morning lecture class =((( Can you imagine the situation that you are not having your very first meal before you go to the HELL lecture class? >.< That's why i said the University Life is so ANNOYING! And I really feel "PROUD" of my timetable because it ruins my life seriously~ Lol, i have one day which i have to start from 9a.m to 5p.m without having any break time!  I am just an ordinary student but not a robot or machine, i cannot do any extreme things >.<  Moreover, i hate to do practical cos it requires 3-4 hours to finish and i'm really an impatient person.  The practical is so tedious and i cannot observe anythings from the experiment if i do not get enough sleep. At first, i thought my university life will be very happy and fun, but it's not like that at all! I can't feel any happiness with a lot of unfinished assignment in front of my study table =.= Some assignments need about 2 month to finish which means i cannot go on a drinking spree~ =(((

Forever

I am going back to Adelaide soon =) This time, i will try to enjoy the life at there as i promised my friends/parents to do so! >.< My friends are so worry about me as i going to Adelaide without them by my side. So, they have made a decision which i think that it is a good decision and a good news to me =) Guess what?  They are going to visit me when they have semester break =)) Aww, i can't wait for that, that will be Cool if i can see them in Adelaide. I think i have changed a lot in these 2 months because i started to think positive rather than negative when times are tough.  And the credit goes to my friend =) They really encourage me a lot and they even plan to go Adelaide with my family just to visit me and hug me... So sweet！Anyway, i feel really exhilarated when i know that they are going to visit me....Good, i just want them by my side FOREVER =)

If i could turn back time

If i could turn back time, i will not choose to go Adelaide which is a place that is far away from my country,home,my beloved family and also my friends. =( To be honest, i thought i can be more independent if i go to Adelaide, but it's not like that at all =) I am just a little kid at there and i can't do anything without my family besides me!  In malaysia, my family will always accompany me to do whatever i want and therefore i feel that i look like a princess to them.  They always try to make me happy with their stupid jokes (especially those cold jokes from my sister) and it really works.  In adelaide, i cannot feel the love from my family but the loneliness.  I feel lonely even though i have some of my good friends at there to chat with me and play with me everyday.  However, that's not enough for me, i am really greedy, i wish that all my friends and my family will come over here and take care of me.  At least, they can make me become stronger and determined to face those problems that keep disturbing my life.  Maybe it's time to have a boyfriend with me so that he can protects me and i might feel the love again if i hug him tightly~ =) Yup, you guys are right, i'm desperate for love!  

Insomnia~

Geez, i wonder what's wrong with me cos i cannot sleep well in these few days. Is "playing too much" consider as a  factor to cause this to happen? I always fall asleep at 4a.m everyday and i can't do anything to help myself to sleep before this time! This is so terrible >.< It seems like insomnia has become a habit to me~ I feel so sick because of insomnia cos it spoils my mood seriously~(Duh, sick + emo can really kill me) =.= Maybe i need some friends, family or boyfriend to hug me tightly so that i can overcome my emotional. At least, it works for me =) I just want them to listen to my problems or lend me a shoulder to lean on because i really feel so suffered from insomnia and also my personal problems. Friends, family or my boyfriend, i really need your hug right now =) Give me a hug, will you? 

我的感情

最近`，我发现自己多了一个专长，那就是用时间来麻痹自己的情感！是的，在感情里，我的确很害怕受伤害，所以，我才那么的自我保护，做伤害人的角色也不要做被伤的那一方。我是在想，伤害与被害本来就是不同的角色，但占上风的却是伤害人的角色。伤害人的确很不应该，但被伤害是真的真的很不应该，因为你不值得被伤害。这两个角色都有各自的特征，如果你选择伤害，你就注定得不到真爱而寂寞会是你的陪伴品。然而，如果你选择被伤的角色，你会注定得到心痛而眼泪是你的陪伴品。我会选择伤害那是因为我真的很害怕心痛 =）但是各位，我不是鼓励你们去伤害人，如果你们真的两情相悦，我会祝福你，但如果其中一方因失去耐心而去伤害对方，那我更加会祝福你，希望你可以找到一个永远不会伤害你的人。=）我不得不否认，爱情的确有好又有坏的方面，那是看你怎么想。=）

错爱

妈妈说: 千万别错爱一个人，因为这是在用你的时间去伤害你自己 =）

我蛮同意她的说法，人往往会因为寂寞或幻觉而错爱一个人，而最残酷的是一旦你错爱一个人，你就注定成为这份爱的牺牲品，痛苦无比。想一想，很多人都会因为错爱一个人而流下无数的眼泪，但事实上，你错爱的那一个人却不懂这份眼泪的心意，更不懂你的眼泪是为他/她而流下的。那是因为，他/她爱的人不是你，在乎的人也不是你。所以，我们为什么要为这份没有意义的爱而浪费时间不让别人来爱我们呢？ =）与其痛苦的爱下去，倒不如放弃这份爱去寻找我们的真爱。我们必须爱自己，而不是伤害自己去爱别人，别忘了，这世界上爱你的很多，但现在你爱的人就只有一个，而且那个人并没有珍惜你的爱！=）所以，我们别在因为寂寞或幻觉而产生错爱，因为寂寞和幻觉所带来的爱是一个0% 的爱! 我们要加油！^-^