My heart is empty

Mmm.....my heart is empty, it is true cos i don't feel like i have feelings for anyone.  What i mean is i am a "cold-blooded" person, how pathetic.....i wish i can learn how to care about someone with my love but i just can't do it cos i have no FEELING at all! Well, i'm always looking for someone to fill my heart with their love cos i just need some love to make me a better person but not a harsh person. However, when someone is trying to fill my heart with her/his love, i feel weird, i feel so uncomfortable and therefore i have rejected them in a very harsh way.  What's wrong with me? I find myself so insecure and i am not willing to let people who cares about me to join my life! I know i am so selfish that i am not willing to share my life with others and i really feel bad for that.=(  Well, having an empty heart with me is no fun at all, i mean i can feel my heartbeat but i can't feel anything else more than that...so, my heart is basically NOTHING.  If i have "nothing" in my heart, that would be no fun in my life, the whole life.  I think i need something to cure my heart cos my heart is sick. Maybe, i should start to put more trust on my friends, i should trust them that they will fill my heart with their 100 percent pure love! That's the only way....i think....maybe....perhaps.....

                                              I'm kinda addicted to this lovely music