I love my family

I am really glad to have a very good family with me cos without them i am NOTHING! =D They can turn my world from black to white and because of them, i don't feel lonely at all.  I only know the definition of LOVE when i am with them =) For me, no FAMILY. no LOVE! My father is a business man, he is busy all the time but he is willing to spare some time to accompany me to do something that i want and i really appreciate that.  When i was small, he used to play badminton with me and that's how i fall in love with BADMINTON! However, he is kinda old now and he can't play badminton with me anymore, i do feel sad for that cos i miss the time where we play badminton. >.< He used to hold my hand when i was small cos he afraid that i might fall down and get hurt but now he don't hold my hands anymore because i have grown up and i know how to get up when i fall down. =) My mother is a housewife, she knows nothing about the world but she is willing to help me in my homework with her limited knowledge. She always tries to give me everything that i want cos she wants me to be happy.  So, my life is full of happiness because my mum is with me. <3 My siblings are annoying sometimes but they are the best!<3 My life would be so boring without them!  I know they care about me so much =D It is really good to have someone to care about you cos you can feel the LOVE! =) 

                                                  Anyway, i love my family! <3

I want a LONG SUMMER BREAK!

Sigh, my summer break is so short, around 2.5 months, oh, how can it be? =((((( I need at least 6 months of summer break or maybe MORE cos i just want to stay in Malaysia with my family and my friends! I wanna forget ADELAIDE badly! >.< I told my mum that i have no friends in Adelaide and i feel lonely at there but my mum replied me that "you have to become more independent". Well, i know i am not independent enough but who CARES? Being independent can be tired sometimes =P Maybe i should tell my mum that i can become more independent if only i STAY in Malaysia! XD Adelaide is really boring, i don't actually have much fun at there and i feel stressful! =( Maybe i should go to brisbane, melbourne or sydney cos i can have a lot of fun at there and maybe i can meet a better person at there as well =))) Anyway, i wish i can extend my summer break!

So, i actually hate my housemate NOW!

I hate to say that but i have to say that "I am really angry of my housemate" because she is the one who brings nightmare to me!  I want to say "Thank you" to her because she always organize party at my apartment and those noises make me able to sleep for 4-5 hour only which is really "GOOD" for my body health.  Wow, i cannot believe that i can survive with 4-5 hour of sleep only, so, i am STRONG, huh! I am so lucky to have her as my housemate because i am able to listen to the "lovely noise" created from her every Friday night, this is really COOL! So, i am thinking to organize a party to repay her so that she also can enjoys listening to the "lovely noise" produced by me and my party friends.  I think she will appreciate me for that. =) She is a genius cos she always choose to organize a party one day before my exam, wow, this make me LOVE her more....cos i just cannot fall asleep and the "lovely noises" produced by her again make me feel awake and i can study more.  So, she is helping me to upgrade my academic grade, i should feel happy cos she HELPS me a LOT! 

Anyway, i am tired today! Thanks to my lovely housemate =)

My heart is empty

Mmm.....my heart is empty, it is true cos i don't feel like i have feelings for anyone.  What i mean is i am a "cold-blooded" person, how pathetic.....i wish i can learn how to care about someone with my love but i just can't do it cos i have no FEELING at all! Well, i'm always looking for someone to fill my heart with their love cos i just need some love to make me a better person but not a harsh person. However, when someone is trying to fill my heart with her/his love, i feel weird, i feel so uncomfortable and therefore i have rejected them in a very harsh way.  What's wrong with me? I find myself so insecure and i am not willing to let people who cares about me to join my life! I know i am so selfish that i am not willing to share my life with others and i really feel bad for that.=(  Well, having an empty heart with me is no fun at all, i mean i can feel my heartbeat but i can't feel anything else more than that...so, my heart is basically NOTHING.  If i have "nothing" in my heart, that would be no fun in my life, the whole life.  I think i need something to cure my heart cos my heart is sick. Maybe, i should start to put more trust on my friends, i should trust them that they will fill my heart with their 100 percent pure love! That's the only way....i think....maybe....perhaps.....

                                              I'm kinda addicted to this lovely music

I miss my home already =((

Arghh, when can i go back to Malaysia? =((( I just can't stand it anymore cos i miss my family so much and i really need someone to teach me on how to make time go by faster! >.< I think i have enough fun at here and now i just want to get back to my parents side and stay with them cos i really MISS them, it sounds weird for me to say that but it is so TRUE! =) Well, i may look tough, independent but deep inside my heart, i am just a little kid who need someone to take care of me, especially my family.  I know this is ridiculous cos i am 20 years old and i still depend on everyone, i know i should not rely on someone too much but i just can't.....well, that's me!  I just want to go back to Malaysia, my home and i wanna lie in my king size bed cos i miss my bed too! =(

                                     *Anyway, that's me when i was small, look cute, huh? =P