Phew =) I feel relieved now!

Well, why do i feel relieved? Aha, this is because i learn how to let go of something that is insignificant in my life especially someone or somethings that does not mean a lot to me.  I am a very serious person and i used to think a lot when people comments on everything that i did.  I feel bad when they did not trust me and this actually suffers me a lot cos i will just keep thinking on the same question "Why they don't trust me?" =( So, i make myself suffer a lot cos i just could not stop THINKING! No, i do not want to attached to "MENTAL HEALTH". However, i feel relax and comfortable now cos i understand that they are many things that i could not control such as 'PEOPLE MINDSET". Yup, one of my friends always tell me that not to think and control too much cos that will just trouble my life!  I really appreciate her advices cos those advices really help me a lot in my life. Thanks a lot =)  I think i will stop thinking too much because of YOU!  Anyway, i feel completely relieved now cos i just could not stop smiling and feel like want to have a good nap.  There are a lot of things that really worth me to appreciate.  I think i should stop showing my "emo face" to everyone, instead, i should smile everyday so that people can feel my happiness. XD Eeeeeeee~SMILE =)))

Just stop that!

Yup, i wanna stop myself for doing those "stupid" or "rubbish" things to someone that i don't think he/she will knows it and appreciates it.  Well, i admit that i am a silly person cos i always think about him/her when i am having lecture class (Cannot concentrate at all) and i always talk about her/him a lots to my firends.  They said i actually started a relationship but i always persuade myself that i did not start any relationship! This is because i do have a boyfriend with me and why do i have to start a relationship without breaking up or thinking of my boyfriend.  If he knows that there is a third party involved in our relationship, he probably will fly to Australia and slap me. =.= Maybe i should not reply her/his message anymore cos i cannot stop sms him/her when i am FREE and NOT FREE! Dammit, i never do this to anyone and now he/she has successfully to make me to sms them!  Congratulations to Sook theng, you actually cannot stop thinking about her/him every seconds.  I know this is not good! =( I know that i am a bad person cos i always make her/him cried.  This is because i always hide myself from them and also ignoring them.  I wanna say Sorry and i know someday you will understand my situation and also the reason for not choosing you as my partner! =) *We are FRIENDS*

I am a bad girl

Lol, i just can't believe that i am actually become a bad girl in my mother eyes.  I think for several seconds on why she thinks that i am a bad girl and the conclusion is : I alway hurt people in a harsh way and never care people with my LOVE.  Well, this is really funny, how am i going to care people with my love? I just don't know how to do that.  I always think that scolding or hurting people is a kind of caring and that's why my friends always said that i am a heartbreaker.  So, it really make sense now cos i just like to hurt people no matter what. This is not good, please do not learn from me otherwise you will become another bad girl/boy or a heartbreaker like me! >.<  I think i should start to care people with my 100 percent true love since caring people with love is much more better than caring people with harsh words.  Duh~ Sometimes, i know that i hurt people in a very harsh way, but i did not mean to hurt you guys cos that's my style.  Now i found out why am i always fail in every relationship with my boyfriend, that is because i HURT them.  Well, they can actually tell me when they feel really hurtful but they did not tell me.  They just bear with my harsh words instead of telling me their feelings.  Lol, now i understand that my boyfriend actually love me a lot. =) Ok, i am wrong cos i did wrong stuffs which is treating people in a very bad way.  I will not repeat this mistake again, so, i will try to care people with my love from NOW ON! Whee~ =)

Just Let It Go

Duh~ i am really a stubborn person and it is difficult for me to let go of something that is insignificant in my life =( Can anyone teach me not to care every little things in my life?  This is because i realized that caring can be hurt sometimes.  I want to care for someone but someone that i really care will usually hurt me a lot.  This is really terrible as i really don't wish to be hurt by someone that i CARE!  My friends ask me to give up on the  person as he/she does not mean a lot in my life and they think that holding on to this relationship will just make us feel the pain.  They even tell me not to care for this person anymore because he/she does not treat me as a best friend but a person to accompany him/her when he/she feels alone.  So, i am demanded when someone feels alone.  Well, i just want to tell him/her that i won't care about you anymore cos you are taking advantages on me.  As your friends, i feel hurt about that but i just did not tell you about my feeling cos i still think that our friendship can last forever.  However, life tells me that i have to let you go from my life cos you are giving me too much pain that i do not deserve AT ALL!  Hey, someone, i think i will try my best to forget you in my life cos you are NOT my friends anymore. Well, just let it go and accept the fate that we can't be friends anymore.  Caring of you is not my JOB. =)

Like or Love?

Sometimes, my friends cannot differentiate the words between "like" and "love" and this actually make them suffer a lot from a relationship.  If you like someone but not loving someone, please don't start the relationship!  You like someone cos you are treating him/her as your BEST FRIEND, a friend who can accompany you whenever you feel down and sad.  This is not related to LOVE at all.  If you love someone, you will not treating him/her as your best friend but a special person that you want him/her to be your side forever. =)  Well, one of my friends suffer a LOT from a relationship, she has gone through a lot of "pain" that she does not deserve and this is really TERRIBLE.  Seeing my best friend feel sad or depressed for an "unworthy" relationship make me feel sympathy for her, i can do nothing but talk to her so that she can feels much better.  I feel sad whenever she cries in front of me and i don't want see any of my friends cry in front of me, the feeling is terrible and indescribable.  I have tried to persuade her to give up the relationship, but i know it's hard for her.  Sometimes, letting go of someone that you really love and care is difficult but we just have to try no matter what!  Giving up a relationship can be good sometimes cos it gives you a new chance to get a better one =) Maybe she cannot understands the meaning between like and love, but i know she will understand someday!  Time can helps to realize a lot of things =)