I am not HAPPY =(

I am not happy because i do not know how to differentiate between what is right and wrong.
I am not happy because my life is complicated.
I am not happy because my true friends aren't my true friends.
I am not happy because someone have wronged me.
I am not happy because i started to revenge on my friends who have wronged me which i think that i should not do that.
I am not happy because i find out the ugly truth about my friends.
I am not happy because my friend is a hypocrite.
I am not happy because i cannot find anyone to trust.
I am not happy because i cannot move on with my life.

I am not happy because i HATE myself.  I am just not happy with my life =(
The truth is " I get tired of finding the truth".

I want to be a koala bear =P

Why do i want to become a KOALA BEAR? =P This is because koala bear can sleep all the time (almost 20 hour per day) and the most important thing is they do not need to wake up early and GO TO LECTURE! =)))  Anyway, i sleep all the time during my holidays (winter break) and i think i'm kinda addicted to sleep since it is a lovely activity.  Everybody loves it =D  However, i still feel tired even though i have slept enough which is not a good sign.  Duh~my friends always tell me that they feel so SICK after knowing that i have spent so much time for sleeping, haha, well, you guys just can't help with it. XD  So, my friends always called me "BEAR" because bear hibernate in the WINTER.  Well, actually i feel sick too cos my school starts next week and i'm kinda afraid that i can't wake up early for the morning lecture class T.T No!!!!!!!  Maybe i should buy more alarm clocks so that i won't late for my lecture otherwise i will skip all my morning lecture for my next semester, is anyone willing to give me a morning call? XD That's why i say being a koala bear isn't bad at all cos what they need to do for their daily life is EAT AND SLEEP! So lucky >.< Lol, some of my friends even laugh at me for sleeping too much because they feel that i look nerdy after sleeping, so SAD!  Stow it!!

Boring Holidays =(

Duh, my holiday is so boring and i feel really regret for not going back to MALAYSIA =((( Argh, now i can understand the feeling that you stuck into a boring place where there is no ENTERTAINMENT at all. =.= And i'm a person who get bored easily which means my life is lack of FUN! >.<  I wanna go back to Malaysia and have fun with my family and friends and i really want to eat DURIAN! Oh, how come my family eat durian without me??  I know i should have fun in Adelaide but i really can't find a place to enjoy. In malaysia, i can always go out and "yum cha" with my friends, but in adelaide, it is really hard to find a good place to yum cha at NIGHT!  In malaysia, i can drive my own car and go everywhere that i like, but in adelaide, i have no Car to go everywhere that i like except taking bus or tram.  Well, whenever i mention this to my parent, they will just say" You this naughty girl, stop complains about lack of fun in your LIFE cos you ALREADY have enough fun in your life.  And please appreciate everything that we have done for you and we always give the best to YOU!" And...bla..bla...bla........ =.=  Sigh, i always have to spend at least 1 hour to listen their BORING "stories", just like my holiday, BORED!  Actually, my parents like to complain about me too.  They always say that i did not miss them cos i don't even give a call or skype with them during my free time.  Lol, this is really FUNNY, so, parents can complain too! =D Anyway, holidays are boring sometimes, but university is boring all the time! XD 

PUB?!!!

One of my favourite activities is going to PUB =)) Well, i am not trying to become a bad girl or what, i just like the atmosphere at there, it is really AWESOME! =D I go to the PUB every friday night and i really enjoy it cos that's the only time i can get to relax, hooray! I don't usually dance at there (I am not good in dancing), so, i will just order a wine or cocktail and start to DRINK with my friends.  I always try my very best to get my friend drunk but i am always the first person to get drunk at there.  Duh, it is so unfair =(( Why do i get drunk so easily?  Lol, my friends always laugh at me when i get drunk....T.T  Anyway, pub is really FUN if only you know how to enjoy the environment and also the wine at there! =)  Aha, i also like the music at there, it just make me feel happy.......i can just sit at there and enjoy the music for WHOLE NIGHT! That's why i did not get enough sleep all the time =(((( Well, i think it should be "OK" with me cos i'm willing to sacrifice my sleep just to have fun in PUB! Wahaha >.<

Boyfriend or boy friend? =)

Well, my current boyfriend always ask me a question which is "Am i your boyfriend or boy friend? Haha, that's a good question, cos i don't even know how to answer him.  To be honest, i always TRIED to treat him as my boyfriend but i always did something bad to him (Hurt or Insult).  Maybe i am not TALENTED in love, i just don't know how to love somebody! That's so SAD for me =(   I am a person who doesn't want to spare my love to my boyfriend but, i just want THEM TO LOVE ME! It is really selfish to ask someone to you but you are the one who does not want to share your love with that person. And i am that person. =) I always ask myself why do i need a boyfriend in my life? Cos i don't love them at all, why do i still need to waste my time and also his time? >.< I always hope that i can meet a right person, it's just like an enzyme substrate mechanism, i want the best substrate to FIT ME! Hope that i will find one BEST SUBSTRATE in my future life~ =)))