Forever

I am going back to Adelaide soon =) This time, i will try to enjoy the life at there as i promised my friends/parents to do so! >.< My friends are so worry about me as i going to Adelaide without them by my side. So, they have made a decision which i think that it is a good decision and a good news to me =) Guess what?  They are going to visit me when they have semester break =)) Aww, i can't wait for that, that will be Cool if i can see them in Adelaide. I think i have changed a lot in these 2 months because i started to think positive rather than negative when times are tough.  And the credit goes to my friend =) They really encourage me a lot and they even plan to go Adelaide with my family just to visit me and hug me... So sweet！Anyway, i feel really exhilarated when i know that they are going to visit me....Good, i just want them by my side FOREVER =)

If i could turn back time

If i could turn back time, i will not choose to go Adelaide which is a place that is far away from my country,home,my beloved family and also my friends. =( To be honest, i thought i can be more independent if i go to Adelaide, but it's not like that at all =) I am just a little kid at there and i can't do anything without my family besides me!  In malaysia, my family will always accompany me to do whatever i want and therefore i feel that i look like a princess to them.  They always try to make me happy with their stupid jokes (especially those cold jokes from my sister) and it really works.  In adelaide, i cannot feel the love from my family but the loneliness.  I feel lonely even though i have some of my good friends at there to chat with me and play with me everyday.  However, that's not enough for me, i am really greedy, i wish that all my friends and my family will come over here and take care of me.  At least, they can make me become stronger and determined to face those problems that keep disturbing my life.  Maybe it's time to have a boyfriend with me so that he can protects me and i might feel the love again if i hug him tightly~ =) Yup, you guys are right, i'm desperate for love!  

Insomnia~

Geez, i wonder what's wrong with me cos i cannot sleep well in these few days. Is "playing too much" consider as a  factor to cause this to happen? I always fall asleep at 4a.m everyday and i can't do anything to help myself to sleep before this time! This is so terrible >.< It seems like insomnia has become a habit to me~ I feel so sick because of insomnia cos it spoils my mood seriously~(Duh, sick + emo can really kill me) =.= Maybe i need some friends, family or boyfriend to hug me tightly so that i can overcome my emotional. At least, it works for me =) I just want them to listen to my problems or lend me a shoulder to lean on because i really feel so suffered from insomnia and also my personal problems. Friends, family or my boyfriend, i really need your hug right now =) Give me a hug, will you? 

我的感情

最近`，我发现自己多了一个专长，那就是用时间来麻痹自己的情感！是的，在感情里，我的确很害怕受伤害，所以，我才那么的自我保护，做伤害人的角色也不要做被伤的那一方。我是在想，伤害与被害本来就是不同的角色，但占上风的却是伤害人的角色。伤害人的确很不应该，但被伤害是真的真的很不应该，因为你不值得被伤害。这两个角色都有各自的特征，如果你选择伤害，你就注定得不到真爱而寂寞会是你的陪伴品。然而，如果你选择被伤的角色，你会注定得到心痛而眼泪是你的陪伴品。我会选择伤害那是因为我真的很害怕心痛 =）但是各位，我不是鼓励你们去伤害人，如果你们真的两情相悦，我会祝福你，但如果其中一方因失去耐心而去伤害对方，那我更加会祝福你，希望你可以找到一个永远不会伤害你的人。=）我不得不否认，爱情的确有好又有坏的方面，那是看你怎么想。=）

错爱

妈妈说: 千万别错爱一个人，因为这是在用你的时间去伤害你自己 =）

我蛮同意她的说法，人往往会因为寂寞或幻觉而错爱一个人，而最残酷的是一旦你错爱一个人，你就注定成为这份爱的牺牲品，痛苦无比。想一想，很多人都会因为错爱一个人而流下无数的眼泪，但事实上，你错爱的那一个人却不懂这份眼泪的心意，更不懂你的眼泪是为他/她而流下的。那是因为，他/她爱的人不是你，在乎的人也不是你。所以，我们为什么要为这份没有意义的爱而浪费时间不让别人来爱我们呢？ =）与其痛苦的爱下去，倒不如放弃这份爱去寻找我们的真爱。我们必须爱自己，而不是伤害自己去爱别人，别忘了，这世界上爱你的很多，但现在你爱的人就只有一个，而且那个人并没有珍惜你的爱！=）所以，我们别在因为寂寞或幻觉而产生错爱，因为寂寞和幻觉所带来的爱是一个0% 的爱! 我们要加油！^-^